Im freaking out. I dont feel like I have the right to be this scared though after wanting and waiting for so long. I am really worried about dying and leaving my kids without a mummy to look after them and leaving my husband without his wife. Who would want to be a widow, let alone a widow at 25.
I dont doubt my decision to have this surgery though and I completely trust in my surgeon and hospital team. I just worry that something may go wrong. Im happy that my hubby has the day off and will be there when I wake up, my mum was given the day off by her employer aswell (just by chance, she didnt request it) so will be there to keep him calm and he wont be alone.
I just want it to be here so I can have it done and the worry will be over.
coco
xo
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
1 week to go!
This time next week I'll be laying in the ICU after my surgery, I cant wait!
I had my pre-admissions appointment yesterday at Flinders, It was a looooonnnng and boring day. I was told alot of things I already know, but I'm glad they went through it all and made sure that I knew what I was getting into. I met with an Anethetist, probably not the one doing my surgery (depends on who is working that day) and he went through my pain relief options, the general anaesthetic (spelling) and all the other shit he needs to. I've decided to go with an epidural for pain relief. I was discussing this with my hubby in the car on the way home, He had to pull the car over and get out because thinking/ talking about epidural makes him feel like he was going to faint lol. It was hilarious! His reaction to it amazes me. Im the one getting a needle in my spine and he gets squeemish lol. His reaction was the same when I had them in childbirth, he had to leave the room. Good thing he wont be in surgery with me.
At the hospital they took bloods to check all my levels and my liver function. For people who dont know about weight loss surgeries, Overweight/Obese people generally have an enlarged fatty liver, and before surgery we need to shrink them (usually with the help of optifast). Well my liver is looking perfect all ready for my surgery :) I have been really worried because my surgeon has said before, that they will cut me open and stitch me back up with no bypass if I havent properly stuck to opti and shrunk my liver. Ive been a good girl with my diet so im so happy its paid off :)
coco
xo
I had my pre-admissions appointment yesterday at Flinders, It was a looooonnnng and boring day. I was told alot of things I already know, but I'm glad they went through it all and made sure that I knew what I was getting into. I met with an Anethetist, probably not the one doing my surgery (depends on who is working that day) and he went through my pain relief options, the general anaesthetic (spelling) and all the other shit he needs to. I've decided to go with an epidural for pain relief. I was discussing this with my hubby in the car on the way home, He had to pull the car over and get out because thinking/ talking about epidural makes him feel like he was going to faint lol. It was hilarious! His reaction to it amazes me. Im the one getting a needle in my spine and he gets squeemish lol. His reaction was the same when I had them in childbirth, he had to leave the room. Good thing he wont be in surgery with me.
At the hospital they took bloods to check all my levels and my liver function. For people who dont know about weight loss surgeries, Overweight/Obese people generally have an enlarged fatty liver, and before surgery we need to shrink them (usually with the help of optifast). Well my liver is looking perfect all ready for my surgery :) I have been really worried because my surgeon has said before, that they will cut me open and stitch me back up with no bypass if I havent properly stuck to opti and shrunk my liver. Ive been a good girl with my diet so im so happy its paid off :)
coco
xo
Sunday, October 9, 2011
9 Days to go!!
Today, there is 9 days until I have Gastric Bypass surgery. Its weird, Im not even nervous. There has been a lifetime leading up to this point, and now im just so relieved and excited its almost here. Im over being the big girl, in every aspect of my life, with my family, with my friends and at work. I need this surgery, Ive been trying for my whole adult life (and teenage life, and even in primary school, i was the youngest member of our local weight watchers!) to lose weight. Always failing miserably and ending up gaining more after. Its not an unusual story really from what im finding around on blogs and forums, my story is quite a common one. Sad, but im glad I didnt just give up, I found some guts and consulted with a surgeon. After a very LONG 2 years on the public waiting list, I had enough. I decided to consult with a private surgeon, he is fantastic and will be operating on me, next tuesday (18th October 2011).Today, My hubby took my before photos. I wish i hadve done them before i started optifast 3 months ago before I lost about 20kg. We also did my measurements. Im going to use them to judge my weightloss when the scales are being assholes (which they do often). so here are my before pictures, and my measurements. eeek!!!
Measurements:
start weight- 150kg :(
Current Weight- 128.6kg (Yuck!!)
Height- 158cm
Neck- 38.5cm
Bust- 135cm
Under Bust- 120cm
Under Bust- 120cm
Waist- 136.5cm
Hips- 153cm
Thigh- left- 85cm, right- 84cm
Calf- left- 48.5cm, right- 57cm
Ankle- left- 25.5cm, right- 27cm
Upper arm- left- 47cm, right- 49cm
Forearm- left- 30.5cm, right- 29cm
Wrist- left- 16cm, right- 16cm
How embarassing! Those numbers are horrid! Im hoping to the gods that I'll never be that size again.
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